Wednesday, April 05, 2006
i think im probably at the lowest point of my life now. the feeling is just like im stuck in a toilet bowl and i cant get out no matter how hard i try. the feeling of defeat stings. it hurts a great deal and im lost. i lost sense of direction in my life. the feeling that once propelled me to do well for chinese is lost to me. probably forever. my confidence in chinese was not natural. before i started doing well for chinese, i was just like any other person, struggling with my chinese marks. this very confidence took me more than 5 years to build up but it took one term to destroy. i dont think i'll be able to find my confidence ever again. all i can hope is that i'd do reasonably well for my HCL o lvls. its not much to hope for, is it?my stand.
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Wednesday, April 05, 2006
i think im probably at the lowest point of my life now. the feeling is just like im stuck in a toilet bowl and i cant get out no matter how hard i try. the feeling of defeat stings. it hurts a great deal and im lost. i lost sense of direction in my life. the feeling that once propelled me to do well for chinese is lost to me. probably forever. my confidence in chinese was not natural. before i started doing well for chinese, i was just like any other person, struggling with my chinese marks. this very confidence took me more than 5 years to build up but it took one term to destroy. i dont think i'll be able to find my confidence ever again. all i can hope is that i'd do reasonably well for my HCL o lvls. its not much to hope for, is it?my stand.
x10:06 PM